day 3 JF

I am on day 3. I almost blew everything away yesterday. It is unbelivable what the fact of not chewing anything does on the body.

We were watching Law and Order SVU and the captain of the police station is an alcoholic and he says: I am tempted every day, every day is a struggle and it has been 20 years! I am starting to wonder if that is the way I am suppose to be thinking to. I have to make a constant and conscious effort to not overeat. Something is really wrong in my head. That is why I am juicing right now. To try and get some clarity, to try and brake my addiction to food. I don't think I can do the 92 days program right now. I am not strong enough. But at the same time I am terrified that once I start to eat again I will go overboard. So I have spend the last 2 days planning meals and getting organised.

I have also come to the realisation that I can't go raw 100%. There are many wonderful sites on the internet and they all suggest the same thing, go in to it slowly. Better eating raw 50% then not at all.

I have the book of Brendan Brazier on the Thrive diet. And I am planning to go onto that as soon as I finish the juice. We are going on a girl's trip on April 14th, to Toronto to go visit the Tim Burton exhibit at the TIFF. We are sleeping over at the Marriott and we will also visit the Royal Ontario Museum. There is no way I can juice while we are there plus I don't want to have to explain to my daughters what I am doing. So I will break the juice fast next week and ease into the Thrive menus. There are plenty of stuff I can bring over on the trip and I will try to visit a raw restaurant. They have those in Toronto.