I got beautiful comments from perfect strangers.
I will consider that they are my angels.
I was able to stay under 1500 monday and tuesday with almost little effort. I went for my walks on monday and tuesday and for swimming on monday.
On wednesday, the Gagoo was off school until next tuesday ( Canadian Thanksgiving). We went shopping with my mom and we stopped at the buffet. All was lost there.
I actually saw a woman eating salads and only salads. She didn't even bat an eye toward the fry food and the sauce and pizza.
I tought to myself, that is very odd. Then I realize, no it is not odd at all. She is the norm, I am the exception. It is me who is odd. Obese, taking medication for hypertension and still eating that fried salty food. That woman was slim and trim and she looked very healthy.
Lots of things are starting to click in my mind. I am, I think starting to see the light. I have been praying Hariel, He is the angel that helps with liberation and freedom. So many times in my life, angels have been there, showing me the way, helping me, conforting me that all will be well.
I know that I need to do this on my own. And that is partly why I am not consulting. I know that in a way, I am looking for help for work that I have to do on my own. Always looking for a crutch. Nobody can lose weight for me.
I know the drill, less calories in, more calories out.
Thank you for your kind words. Maybe I am not lost after all.
I am just exhausted and tired of starting over and over again.
I lost that same weight 4 times so far. It is very hard for me not to listen to that little voice in my head saying: You will fail again, don't even try, it is not worth it....
I am worth it and I can do it. Of course, right now, my belly is full so it is very easy to say that.
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I am so glad you came and visited me. I did lose some of my weight but it is because I developed food allergies and I can not eat flour, oatmeal, cornmeal, or rice. When I first started having problems and the dr. said it was food related I had to almost stop eating nearly everything. By adding one thing at the time we began finding out what I could and could not eat. Now I have to read food labels for everything. I seldom eat the wrong thing simply because the consequences are too severe for me to take a chance. But I am glad there is still a lot of food I can eat. Thankfully I love vegetables and fruit. I am eating a lot healthier, and I am feeling better than I did when I was in my 40's. I posted a really good recipe earlier, Kung pao chichen. It is only 250 calories a serving and it is delicious. I fixed it today and even my dh liked it.
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